It's been getting colder and colder lately and I am loving it. I broke in my fabulous new coat yesterday, because it was like way cold and with the wind chill it felt more like thirty degrees. I would prefer to traipse around campus in this weather than in the horrible heat of August (and September and October). I'm going to have to stay offline for a few days though, as my final grades are being posted and if I'm at my computer I'll just be refreshing every thirty seconds and driving myself mad waiting for the news. I have two more exams next week that I'll be preparing for in the mean time, and by next Friday it will all be over! In a good, non-morbid way. xx
I'm anticipating that this afternoon will be difficult as it is my last day at work. I won't be returning to work as a tutor again next semester. Since August I've gotten to know my kids well and have learned so much about tutoring, teaching, and about children and different learning processes. My patience has been tested, a little 4th grade girl almost made me cry (in a bad way :/ for reals) and I have learned, essentially, the basics of what it is to be a teacher. On Monday one of my students drew a self portrait of moi (I was wearing a beanie that day) and wrote our initials and "BFFs"; she was practically beaming when I asked if I could take her picture. And then, my 2nd grade boy was just as sweet. For our lesson I had come up with some topics, ("Me", "My Best Friend", "My Family", etc.) and we were going to think of adjectives to describe them. In a bubble map, natch, even though I don't know if they still use those anymore. When we got to "My Best Friend" I said, "Think about who your best friend is and some qualities that they have." And he started to spin around in his chair and he said, "'Well...one of my best friends is sitting right next to me." And he immediately wrote down my name. And that I am "cool" (!) Can I just say, if I were to ever have a son I would want him to be exactly like this little boy. I cannot wait to find his mom tonight at parent night and tell her how smart and wonderful he is. Before I began working for this program, teaching was something that I had in the back of my mind. I'd never seriously considered it as a career option. Yet here I am four months later, looking at assistant teaching internships. I would have never thought that this would have had such a lasting impact on me. I can honestly say that I am a better person for having met and had the chance to spend time and work with this children. Hopefully I can get the chance to do more, someday. xx
It's the last full week of the semester and I could not be more excited. I'm ready for a break, but aren't we all? (: Until then (by which I mean next Friday when I'll officially, officially been done with everything) I'm looking forward to long cold nights, scarves and hats, big cozy sweaters, and cute holiday movies on tv. Needless to say, all I want is a low key Christmas at home...fingers crossed! xx
Our trip to Sedona on Thursday was refreshing, exciting and beautiful. I always forget just how close it is (less than three hours away!) Even though pretty much everything was closed because of the holiday, we still enjoyed driving through the city and oogling over the architecture and such (: Our hike was awesome and there were a few other families there too, plus a couple doggies (: The view was even better than I remembered (more photos below) and we already can't wait to go back.
Two friends and I at the top of Devil's Bridge Trail last year!
be having a fairly non-traditional Thanksgiving tomorrow, we’re planning to
drive to Sedona and go on this hike, which I’ve been looking forward to since
the first time I hiked Devil’s Bridge Trail, last year (photo above). It looks
way scarier than it actually is (:
travels to anyone venturing to or from the east coast this week, looks like the
storms will be coming in tonight! Happy Thanksgiving!
I think that this applies to all of us. Getting lost in music can turn into such a spiritual moment sometimes, that it becomes a ritual all on its own. What I’ve been listening to lately, Cloudy Desert, takes me to that place. It’s been on repeat to say the least. Two of my favorite songs are here, and a link to the artist’s blog. Visit bubbadak.bandcamp.com to hear more, and bubbadak.blogspot.com to read more about the artists' work.
can be hard to remember but it is so, so important! Sometimes the only thing
standing in front of you is yourself, and other people’s supposed perceptions
of you. Why do they matter? The truth is that they don’t, but the other truth is that secretly they do
sometimes, right? Everyone always compares themselves to everyone else. It just
happens. That’s what people do. The important thing is to think about what you want first, and it may be just to go
off and be your own person. Or your own bird.
said it would rain and it did. Doesn’t get much better than that for a Friday,
eh? This morning I’ve opened all the windows to let in the breeze and the smell
of the rain. I’ve unearthed all my scarves and knit hats from the closet
because it finally, finally, finally feels
have 4-5 days left of this semester. This morning I confessed: I’m over it. I don’t want to do it anymore. Because
I’m sick and tired of it all; on more than one occasion I’ve thought: Why did I even sign up for this class? Did
it sound fun last July when I was scrolling through the course catalogue? Two
out of four of my classes are horrible and awful and terrible and I am exaggerating,
but not by much.
notorious for bringing things up at the worst time. Like when I told everyone I
didn’t want to fly to Colorado to see my uncle when we were already at the
airport and about to check in. Or, for example, confessing how much I hate
school at 6:45 this morning on the drive to work. You’re almost done, he reminded me, then he pointed off into the
middle of the road, creating an imaginary line, You can see the finish line from here. At least walk across it, even if
you can’t run. You can’t just sit down and say ‘I’m done’. If you can see the
finish line, you’re good.
goodness, love. This is why I have you. That was all I needed to hear.